NIce to meet you, i'm tori
I'm a writer, an anti-racist activist and educator, neuroscience research assistant, history nerd, and an ex-evangelical. I use neuroscience to reframe the way culture engages with mental health, race, racism, spiritual abuse, sexuality, and the legal system.
I tried y'all...
I really did try. I fought like hell to be the way I was supposed to be in church and stuff. Truly. In church, at least the kind of churches I attended, they told you that the Holy Spirit would empower you to live the life that God wanted you to live. Holy, blameless, not drawn toward sin.
Turns out, beating myself up in an attempt to live up to this impossible standard isn't great for your health. For some reason or another, it seemed that the Holy Spirit never picked up the slack. You're supposed to keep fighting the way you really are until you die.
But let's be honest. I've never really had that kind of self-control.
I am who I am.
I'm not sure it's good enough for God, if he/she/they actually exist somewhere outside the multiverse. It's pretty arrogant to think you're good enough for god, though, wouldn't you agree?
I still frame much of my experience through the lens of Scripture. Theology is way I resist the oppressive and harmful teachings of the Christian church. The trouble with a 1,000+ page text? Well, mainly it's that you can use it for good or evil.
The Bible is a double edged sword. It can be used to keep people in bondage, as it was during the first four centuries of Europeans on this continent. And it can be used to break chains and disrupt the status quo.
I'm going to use it for the latter. It would be an honor if you joined me.